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Lead poisoning by sdmfforever, literature

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Lead poisoning

Pull the trigger on me I can take the bullet without a problem It's the anxiety of anticipation that's killing me Aim proper and true Squeeze it and end my misery I've brought this upon myself Dug in too deep, too quickly Charging ahead with no thought As to self-preservation There's a chance I could be wrong But that's part of the problem, isn't it? The pistol might not be there An imaginative construct of my own paranoia The quicker you fire The sooner we'll discover Quite how right I am

For Jaz by sdmfforever, literature

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For Jaz

My body aches I am so tired Nothing means anything Without you to hold my hand I love you, my Goddess With all of my being My heart, mind, body and soul Every little piece of me No matter how broken It's been almost a year But it feels like a lifetime Nothing will ever be the same You are my life It hurts me enough That I can't see you everywhere I love you, My perfect Goddess, My precious owlet, Beautiful penguin, Crazy Pineapple, My little sweetpea But most importantly My fiancee

The Same by sdmfforever, literature

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The Same

And so it begins again The past encroaches so close Time always repeats itself Or so we've been led to believe I've been here before, This winding descent Paranoid delusions I hope this time is different I pray the horrible fantasies do not become real I could not bear it If it happened again But I've hurt myself and others Thinking this way before Always a mile of distance between myself and them A great wall to protect myself I realise that containing myself will do no good But it's all I know how to do I cannot fight, can't cry or run away I face the flames and I contain I want so badly for this to work I trust her impl

Fallout by sdmfforever, literature

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Fallout

The superior expanse lies ahead, decaying and ravaged by time, A lonely speck dances out upon the horizon in the vast distance, Bellowing, gesticulating wildly and laughing This man has seen all things, experienced the end of time, He has lovingly caressed the soft bosom of Death's mighty embrace, And it opened to him the secrets of the universe. He knows more than his gibbering voice could ever say, has heard infinite truths drowning amongst each other in beautiful cacophony, There is nothing more for him, now All he longs for is silence. He gallops looking for the envelope of darkness, Searching for something to numb the constant,

Mechanibeast by sdmfforever, literature

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Mechanibeast

I am the rabid dog, The sputtering chainsaw Brought to life with adversity Nothing will get in my way Part animal Part machine Deadly in the absolute extreme I am cold snakeskin, Encased within steel and mesh Precise, agile and disastrous Invincible and untouchable You cannot break my armour You cannot pierce my psyche We are not the same For I am inhuman The brutal, raving savage I strike with pinpoint accuracy My targeting exact and punishing Beast and machine in one Ferocious and dominating Unpredicable and premeditating Part animal Part machine Deadly to every extreme

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Never Stop by sdmfforever, literature

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Never Stop

Dancing around constellations Galaxies upon the floor Gods towering over cities Painting their grand designs of light Intricate patterns of love and happiness Do what you can To fly To dream And to be Let nothing stop your potential Not me Or her Him Them or us Project yourself into infinity You cannot be stopped Consume these positive energies and become unstoppable in your quest Keep moving Keep being unique Keep being you Because noone else will

Never Stop

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Artist // Student // Literature

Sep 24
United Kingdom
Deviant for 13 years
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Hey, I'm Phill. I'm a musician/writer/bum- I play guitar and I'm working on a story idea as well...I'll let you know how it all turns out!

I'll mainly be posting poetry or ideas on here, for the forseeable future, though.

Current Residence: London
Favourite genre of music: I like most music. Metal's the best, though.
Favourite style of art: Something with meaning.
Operating System: Vista. Ugh.
MP3 player of choice: Phone.
Shell of choice: Hollow point 6.5×55mm Swedish Mauser
Wallpaper of choice: Deadpool.
Skin of choice: tattooed.
Favourite cartoon character: Alucard, Vash the Stampede or Toki Wartooth

Favourite Visual Artist

H.R. Giger, Dali, Chapman Brothers

Favourite Movies

Predator, Labyrinth

Favourite TV Shows

Firefly, Breaking Bad, Metalocalypse

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Testament, Nevermore, Behemoth or Fantomas

Favourite Writers

Lovecraft, Alan Moore, Neil Gaiman, Hunter S Thompson

Favourite Games

Fallout 3, Sonic 3, Mortal Kombat

Favourite Gaming Platform

X-Box 360

Tools of the Trade

Pen, paper, keyboard and wordpad

Other Interests

Metal, books, films, comics, alcohol

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sdmfforever

Sep 29, 2012

Looks like I'm back!

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It's been a long, long time... I've neglected this page. Neglected my writing. Since starting my relationship with Jaz, my free time has reduced - understandably, she makes me so happy that I could just stare at her face for hours without realising the passing of time - along with my hours at work getting a bit unbearable on top of it all (Understaffed as USUAL) I've never been so "in demand" before. It feels weird. One day off a week is no good. I've got to find a way to split my time between family, friends, Jaz, guitar, exercise and writing as well as getting a decent nights worth of sleep on top of it all, without offending any of the

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sdmfforever

Dec 1, 2011

Far Beyond Metal

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Now that the music industry's ill And we're the fucking antidote One line and you're outta control Yeah, you fucking suck! Oh, you ironic pop-rock fuck Don't you fuck with METAL One line and you're outta control Yeah, we fucking OWN YOU! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hbDV5jiLdaA&feature=related ---------------------------------------------------------- I've been so tempted to start an SYL tribute band. I'll never get the chance to see them again in my lifetime, so I figure if I start up a cover band, I can at least try to make it as fucking awesome as possible. I think my only problems are finding a drummer that is THAT DAMN GOOD

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sdmfforever

Oct 22, 2011

The sickness within

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1. Favorite DA artist besides yourself? Not sure....anyone I "watch" on this all seem really cool! 2. Say something from an inside joke! "Penguin?" 3. What is your best and worst personality trait and physical features? a) Best personality trait: I can be funny, I guess? b) Worst: I guess it'd be the rampant and unecessary self-hatred c) Best physical: Probably my hair, or something. My hands seem to grab a lot of attention, I guess. d) Worst: Everything else. 4. What is your favorite memory? The first 5 months of my first relationship. Just that overwhelming feeling of love. 5. What is your long lasting favorite song and why? "Ov